Hopefully good

Well mixed emotions at the moment really. Like I've said before, Crystal is going through a hard time right now so I've tried to let her have space since anything I seem to do lately sets her off, and no matter how many times I say I'm looking for a job, she doesn't believe it, calls me lazy, and says I'm making excuses. It hurts when your loved one doesn't believe you and maybe she just doesn't know me that well yet. I've always gave it my all on jobs even when I feel like I can't keep going. I've always do my chores at home and when I lived with her I did them a lot too for the first month or so. Anyway I've been applying a numerous places everyday and to come home and see messages like "I'm trying to find a job while pregnant because I can't depend on anyone" (not an exact quote) does hurt. But really, what can I do? I don't want to argue it, and I'm fine if she wants to vent if it helps her relieve stress. Sure it's making me look like a really shitty guy but that's far from the important right now. I just have to keep trying to look for a job and keep faith that things will get better. I hope that Crystal will see that someday but right now it's not important. As long as her and our son are healthy and happy and I can get a job, it's good enough for me.

Now on to better news, I checked my email this morning and got a reply from Macy's that started hiring seasonal a few days ago and I put in my app on Monday. I scheduled an interview for tomorrow so I really need to bring my "A" game (lol, never used that term before) and hope I get this job! :) And oh wow, something I haven't seen since I've been back to California, a help wanted sign in a business. I was like holy shit? Filled it out right outside and brought it back in. Hell if I could get 2 jobs right now that would just top it :D Well I shouldn't just assume the interview or help wanted signs mean the job is in the bag but still makes me optimistic since almost every single place I've applied to so far wasn't hiring, just taking apps. Even fast food, believe it or not. But with department stores opening positions for seasonal I feel like this will all come together soon.

Well I took enough time out to type this. Need to fill out 3 more apps here, then go out and turn them in, and also get some nice clothes ready for my interview tomorrow :) aja aja!