Busy busy

Finally taking time to post. I've been so busy lately, applying for jobs everyday. I feel like I've been practically everywhere but still sometimes when I go out I notice a place I haven't tried, and now with the holidays coming, some businesses are hiring for seasonal, so I'm getting even more apps in and hoping something comes through. I haven't had much time to watch dramas due to applying at places, and also having to drive my sister everywhere for my mom. Crystal hates when I have to do that and I don't blame her, and it takes away from time I can be applying for jobs or something else.

Right now I feel alone, like I really don't have support from anyone, though Crystal is the only person I really had on my side right now, but she's going through a lot and I need to help her. I've been trying my hardest but at the moment, anything I do makes things worse. I don't want to argue with anyone about it even though words have been put in my mouth when I've said nothing and no matter how many places I apply, call, or stop by, it feels like it goes unnoticed by anyone. It's kind of painful, if only for the fact that if Crystal thinks I'm not trying, it's only going to hurt and stress her more :( But with how things are currently, my main focus needs to be on getting this job, which it has been almost every waking moment, most days, for weeks now. Even if everyone loses faith in me, I just have to keep moving forward so I can provide for my love and my child.

Until next time, always hwaiting, aja aja!